It’s truth time, and let me just tell you: when you fall off the wagon, it ain’t pretty. I’m fresh off a 3 day detox (yep, that’s a thing) and finally feeling like I’m getting things under control again.
For the past couple of months, I’ve been extremely busy and stressed out over a variety of things [Insert your own issues here], and I just plain didn’t manage it well. I reverted back to using sugar as my coping mechanism.
It started with sharing an innocent dessert with friends, then it turned into dessert every day. In the car. By myself in the grocery store parking lot with one of those giant cookie sandwiches with the cream in the middle. The kind from the bakery that has enough calories to last me an entire day.
So yeah, no amount of fish and broccoli is gonna trump that.
I don’t even like candy bars that much, but after Halloween, I found myself digging through the leftover candy for all the Twix and Heath bars.
It was bad, ya’ll.
The thing about addiction is that there’s usually a ritual, and a cycle of shame that keeps us stuck in self-defeating behaviors. This video brilliant portrays that cycle. It’s a bit longish and very tongue in cheek, but makes OH SO MUCH SENSE.
When I started my recovery journey, I wrote out a set of “bottom lines” for what “sobriety” or recovery would look like for me. Here’s what I came up with:
- I will not eat mindlessly after 8 p.m.
- I will get at least seven hours of sleep every night.
- I will not use food or tv to avoid dealing with stress or negative emotions.
- When I slip up, I’ll tell someone and immediately get back on track. I won’t give up or throw in the towel for the rest of the day/week.
Looking back at the past couple of months, it’s clear that I abandoned the bottom lines that kept me on the path to recovery. Missing sleep. Eating late at night. Binge watching tv. Sneaking fast food or junk food when no one else was around. Hiding wrappers in the trashcan. (See…I told you it was bad.)
Fortunately, I have a fantastic support group in my corner, and a therapist who really gets it. I reached out and owned up to what was happening (in her words, I had a case of the “eff-its.”) I took some time away from blogging, social media and a whole lot of other stuff to refocus on my one big goal: Get healthy from the inside out. I revisited my bottom lines and got back to the basics.
Sometimes You Just Need to Unplug & Reconnect
I really do enjoy social media and blogs. I still believe (despite this election cycle) that the internet CAN be a source for connection, inspiration and support. HOWEVER, it’s no substitute for real, face to face relationships. There’s just something about sitting across the table from someone and baring your soul over a cup of coffee. We all need that sometimes.
We also need to take time to reconnect to what’s driving us: In my case, the “why” behind my wellness journey. I journaled, prayed, and mapped out my recovery plan. I put pen to paper and painted a picture (with words…because my art skills are SADLY lacking) of what life will look two years from now when I’ve reached my great big goal.
I met with my nutritionist and she put together some guidelines for a simple 3 day sugar detox, and I told a whopping four people that I was doing it. I didn’t blast it on Instagram. I didn’t go on Facebook Live to talk about it. I just did it.
(For those of you who are dying to know what my 3 day sugar detox looked like, it consisted of a mostly vegetarian diet with lots of seeds, nuts, beans and veggies. The food was actually SO good and I never went hungry. I lost about 4 lbs by the time it was done. I am so stinkin’ proud of myself for doing it, and plan to continue incorporating more vegetarian options into our meal planning.)
Here’s a couple of my favorite detox recipes:
I’m so happy I got my head back in the game BEFORE the holidays. I’m back to making healthier versions of things that I enjoy, and you know what, I’m truly satisfied by them.
Some of my favorite recipes right now are these banana split smoothies (I add stevia and vanilla extract) and homemade hot cocoa (Here’s a recipe similar to how I make mine. I use this cacao powder and liquid stevia, and toss it all in the blender.)
Here’s what I’m making for dessert on Thanksgiving! My “treat” will be some homemade cornbread dressing with cranberry sauce; I’d take that over dessert any day of the week.
How are YOU staying on track with healthy eating during the holidays?